Blowing Tummy Bubbles

L just blew on my tummy. Literally she blew farting noises and I was so surprised I laughed. And because of my deep, giggly, belly laugh, my daughter giggled and laughed and did it over and over and over again. That was the most fun 10 minutes I've had ever! Now she is peacefully asleep and I can't believe she's funny and smart and so beautiful and that she's ours.

Dear L,

At 12 mos you blew farting noises on my tummy and you genuinely made me laugh even without telling me a joke. I can't wait for you to finally tell me something funny and we'll both laugh together. I can't wait to share stories and secrets and talk about everything and anything you feel like talking about. You just made me feel so loved and special by blowing farting noises on my tummy. I tried blowing back on your tummy but it was more fun when you did, so you raised my shirt and did it over and over and over again until you got tired and we breastfed and now you're asleep and I'm tears about it while blogging because I'm so overwhelmed with joy because you blew farting noises on mommy's tummy. 

I love you so much, I can't imagine life without you. I am over the moon inlove with you. Thank you for being you.

Love, 

Mommy

To my Liane @ 1

Dear L,

I look at you now, soundly and peacefully sleeping and remember that this day only a year ago, I was drying myself off with a towel from a relaxing warm steam bath after swimming at Tagaytay Highlands when some bright red bloody show made my heart skip a beat. That was the happiest and most exciting show of blood I have ever seen. I was so excited to finally meet you in person after 38 weeks.

 7:00PM 4-19-14

I calmly put on fresh clothes and dried my hair and packed my things before I told Mimi about it and she panicked for me.

We got home and I took my time putting make up on and ironing my hair. I wanted to look pretty on labor! I run through the stuff we needed and then timed the contractions and at 12am, we went to the hospital.

Everything was prepared and went smoothly. We stayed in our room through labor because I wanted to be with Daddy. My excitement to see you and my will to make it all natural kept me positive as the contractions became more intense. I would grip the bed rails until a contraction was over and await the next one. Wheww!

At 6am, I was already 6cm and gave in to an epidural and at 9:23am on 4-20-13, I finally believed at love at first sight. You, Liane Xandrea were born. You made your grand entrance to the world, into our lives and into my heart where you will always be. Your strong cry was music to my ears. It was the best sound! 

Today, I look at you and its love at 2nd, 3rd, 4th and nth time.

At 1 year old, you may be tiny but you have changed our lives. I thank Jesus everyday for giving me a chance to be your Mommy. I don't deserve it but His grace makes everything possible. 

Liane girl, you are so smart, so sweet and so beautiful. Your sweet dimpled smile and your spontaneous butterfly and flying kisses make my day. I love you so much.

Happy first birthday to best best girl in my world!

On Breastfeeding @ 1 year

Liane and I have been direct breastfeeding since birth for the past almost 12 months. Our first meeting was a beautiful memory etched forever at the depth of my heart: the breastcrawl and skin to skin. When I gave birth for her, I saw the shock of raven hair, her skin color and her strong cry brought me to blissful tears. But when she finally reached me, she latched on to me and she looked at me. Her eyes, my eyes were the last thing I saw before I passed out. 

It has been a blissful experience with a lot of memories I treasure in my heart. It has inspired me to grow as a person, as a mother to L and has allowed me to nurture not just my own baby but more babies who we have shared and donated breastmilk to. 

Along the way, we have met new mommy and baby friends and I have nursed L everywhere: in church, at the mall, airport, beach-- name it. She has also discovered what I fondly call "breastfeeding acrobatics" which makes our nursing sessions even more fun and memorable. 

She is also Mommyfide's inspiration for me to provide fashionable, affordable and Modern Mommywear for breastfeeding moms and the sole reason why breastfeeding is close to my heart. 

But it wasn't always easy at first. Being a new mom and persevering the first 3wks up to 3 months, establishing milk supply, adjusting to not sleeping straight at night, unli latch and growth spurts, plugged ducts, sore nipples, limited wardrobe and more! 

But today, L is turning 1 year old in less than 2 wks. I feel like I earned a medal for coming full circle. Breastfeeding her has become so valuable to me:

1. It is her instant comfort whenever she is not feeling well: teething

2. Helps her sleep

3. No painful ears when we travel by plane, so she is such a happy traveller

4. We travel and go out without worrying if we packed enough bottles, formula, sterilizer, etc. it allows us to travel light.

5. The savings (!!!!!!!)

6. The experience. Ohh when she looks at me and smiles, when we play while she is latched on or when she tries to put her foot in my mouth because she wants my undivided attention when I am on my phone while we nurse-- stuff like these.

7. Jumpstarts her immune system. Babies spend 40 wks in the womb, but the last that develops is their immune system which breastfeeding complements! Isn't that amazing? 

8. The bond I have with L :)

9. Best thing my boobs have ever done

10. Lost pregnancy weight quickly

I miss how she would be latched on to me all day and all night when she was tiny. Trust me, it gets better. Today she looks forward to meal times, would play or like to go out on a walk instead of nurse... Would be too distracted to nurse for more than a few minutes when we are out. All these things.

Mommies and mommies-to-be, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity and you have very limited time and window for this experience with your children. 

I feel like I am a super hero and have super powers for making milk even while I sleep! What's your super power? 

Indeed, it is a selfless act of love and devotion only a determined mother can provide. Daddies can change nappies, Grandma can babysit for a bit, Nanny can take over for awhile, Grandpa can do playtime... But only Mommy can breastfeed :)

Many have asked me for tips how to succeed because I have made it look easy. Just set your mind to it, no bargaining... Enjoy your baby, enjoy, live and love the experience while it lasts and trust me, it will be hard before it becomes easy and it will get better and better. 

 I think a breastfeeding mother and child is a beautiful sight. We will be breastfeeding until L self weans whether that will be when she is three or when she is 30. Hehehe!